dont judge the character until you're fully submerged.

lets face it, i'm not the perfectest crayon in the box. i've made a lot of mistakes, and i don't live a fairy tale life. there's only so much of a personae i can spin to look like she's got it all together - after all, as a PR, that's my job.

i've got a signature pose like every other girl on facebook, i worry about weight and diet, i'm a prolific video game master (i can wax poetically in squaresoft, sony, nintendo and microsoft), and i can turn on 'the bitch' in less than a heartbeat when i have to. i can also turn on the angel and the bargaining diva in the same amount of time.

i think people sometimes see an angle of me where it may seem superficial with earthly matters, with my sometimes expensive taste, but truly, i feel that i'm nothing without a bargain. there are times where i wish i could be a paris hilton, where i can shop at high end stores to waste away the hours of my day, but at the same time, i'm so grateful that i wont have that opportunity because it keeps me grounded and work hard for my money.

and when i work hard for my money and i make a big purchase, it makes it feel that much better.

people also see an angle of me as being a quiet person. i dont find it that way, i'm reflective and i choose the battles i need to fight and let go of the ones that aren't worth my strain, stress and voice. i've never thought of myself as 'quiet', but possibly, quietly scheming?

i think people also have the mistake of judging people by their initial character or what they let on, and unfortunately for them, they never see the gem that people can really be.

i know a handful of people who can see past the mess of a person and find a real diamond in the rough, and thankfully, these people are my friends. and maybe thats why they found me or maybe how i found them? to me, they are all beautifully flawed and i couldn't ask for anything more than what they are.

i hope that people look past their initial thoughts on the people surrounding them and find the gems that people can really be.

*end rant*